When I feel a resentment, I take a searching and fearless moral inventory of myself knowing that it is either fear, insecurity, self-esteem or sex relations threatened or destroyed, such as when you are left for someone.
Sometimes life is unfair. Some get second chances, and some do not. I think it is just your karma and impressions. Perhaps these can be modified, but perhaps not. I think we can change our future karma, but maybe not our past already made karma from other life times for example or a long time ago in this life.
Sometimes I think I am being punished cosmically for something mean I might have said to someone when I was a child not thinking. I will not tell the thing I am thinking about, because I am ashamed, but I guess I was just a little kid and did get a lecture from my daycare provider. I was only five or six.
Still, I do not think it really matters anymore. Things are what they are. My life is about family and working on my music and writing and trying to promote a positive world. Namaste.
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